'I can do that!'

'You design and make clothes? GREAT! Could you recreate 5 bridesmaids dresses by August?'

'SURE!'

The kind of opportunity I've been waiting for. So why am I so scared? Maybe I don't believe in my potential? Maybe there's no way I can have it done in time and continue to work 3 jobs? Or maybe it's because it's real. 

My client (hell yeah, my client!) wants me to design AND make some new dresses to sit on top of the dresses she has. She loves the colour but the bridesmaids are not keen on the fit. Enter Kacie!

Very first and rough ideas.

Studying law, medicine or even teaching at university is justifiable. Fashion is an art (In my opinion) it can't be taught. Yes, there is a math and set of technical skills to be learned in terms of pattern cutting, marketing, technical drawing and so on. But £9000+ for that? No thank you. I want to make it alone and I will make it alone.

Of tasteless 'quotes', I'm not a fan but here's one that grabbed me, Happy Tuesday:

'You must decide that you want it more than you are afraid of it.'

Spontaneity.

Sometimes, it's okay to be crazy and make irrational decisions. Keeping in mind that it is important to know the time, place and appropriate circumstances. For example, splashing out on a laptop when you have a lack of sufficient funds... not a good idea. Deciding to drive to Sheffield at 23:00 to spend a night with your boyfriend on your only day off for a long while... forgiveable.

Or so I thought. Silly, Kacie.

Those of you that know me personally know that I come from a line of performers. Actors, models, singer song writers, blah blah blah. That including the litter I belong to. Obviously in this being the case, they can occasionally react... extravagantly to otherwise minute situations. This, I always find comical. Especially when, my wicked humoured mother, joins in.

So with that, I want to apologise to Jamie-Jodie Shanks for being unfair and selfish in leaving her to pick up the pieces whilst I was away for the night when Nikita-Nina Shanks tragically went missing at The Almanack yestersay. I hope that someday you will be able to bring yourself to forgive me.

 Osborn shooting Pippa/Common activity.

We all have different angles of perception. I love them all to pieces and we have so much fun together. Yes, It would be nice if sometimes, Osborn choosing not to wear shoes outside or running out of milk weren't ''situations'' capable of ending the world as we know it, but then life would be too vanilla. And I don't think we could roll with that. 

And they all lived... the end.

Watch this space for more of nothing and everything.

Running on fumes.

''Even dust, when accumulated, turns into a mountain.''

27 hour days aren't fun. I wanted to let you know just in case you were planning on making a colossal mistake in the near future. It goes without saying, some sleep is better than no sleep. I've always been more of a functional person when under the influence of sleep deprivation, but on this occasion I may have just shot myself in the foot. with six 7:00am starts and stupid o'clock finishes coming up, I could have done with taking all the sleep I could when I had the chance.

Anyhow, It's all about powering through. I know that once I've made it in the world of fashion I will look back on these hard times and the days of struggling and miss it. Knowing it was the best time and the most fun. it's all about the journey and not the destination, after all.

Meanwhile, in those rare spare hours I've been working a lot on a dirty pink chiffon shirt with a beaded design of a symmetrical pattern I drew up of a dead cherry blossom tree. Oh the labour! and of course I chose the smallest beads in existence. Put just a bite too much on my plate AGAIN perhaps?

They're the size of poppy seeds.

400 beads down, roughly 98 lost to the floor, approximately 10,000 to go...

I will be at this for days.

I will be grouchy. 

I will want to give in with some tears.

I will have fingers covered in pin pricks.

I will loose sleep.

But I will finish it and I won't stop until that is the case.

Think not? Watch this space.